The universe has an attitude, mom!

After a night of dreams that were about as elusive as this one(I blame the mulled wine last night), I woke up with a strange, sinking feeling of uneasiness. Which was an awful waste especially today since I had been given an unexpected day off and could have slept in. I guess I have to blame the first week back at university. So here's what I worried about for a while round 6am, then again at 8am:

• Should I really sit my intermediate exams this winter as planned? For starters, I'm slightly (ha!) behind schedule with the requisite work - they want a rather complex portfolio thingy and have a required-reading list from here to the moon...
• Should I really do my practical intermediate exams this winter (piano, singing) as planned?
• Aren't I too bad for piano as major in the long run? No, really. Because, the standards for that are way up there in the clouds, all the examiners are pianists as well (and so quite ehm, observant...) and I've been noting for a while now that my progress is waaaaaay slow and maybe just a tad too time-consuming in view of the results...
• Shouldn't I maybe instead ask my singing teacher whether he thinks me at all capable to be majoring in singing instead? Which I am not at the moment, I've started classes far too recently for that, but in contrast to piano, singing would be more a question of talent (whether my voice is up to it) and of a good deal less practising. By comparison, I mean. But if I did that, I'd have to postpone my intermediates for sure in order to catch up, so I'm none the wiser timewise.
• Will I be able to fit in those pedagogic classes that I've been given at all at the same time?
• Oh, yes, there's school, too! Now that you mention it...
• Is the reason for the slight dizziness I feel thinking about all this a hint that maybe I am taking on too much? Or am I just being lazy and need to get my act together, get into an effective work mode?

"Make up your mind!"

Well, looks like the universe is giving out unasked-for advice. And it even cut in on my "Yes, but I don't know, you see..."

" You know everything."

What I sure do know now is that the universe doesn't like whiners.

So there.